Thursday, 30 January 2014

Night


As she screams she scratches more and more at the crook of her arm. She pulls and tugs at the sharp object through the burning in her veins. What had seemed like pain before was a mere shadow of the intensity that touching the object brings. Her breathing has increased to hyperventilation, and she can feel the oxygen leaving her brain. She tries to calm her breathing, yet it is an exercise in futility. She continually rips at her arm to rid herself of the pain. Warm blood leaks from her arm to the floor. It smells like metal and she begins to dry heave. She feels consciousness slipping from her, and she vaguely feels her head hit the floor, her face wet as it comes into contact with her blood. As if controlled by its own impulse, her hand continues to scratch and tear at her skin, eager to rid itself of the foreign entity that is causing so much pain. Her brain continues to fight through the pain, and finally she feels the object begin to give. Her breathing slows and she takes a deep breath and pulls out the object. She closes her eyes and waits for the pain to recede. Her brief time inside this institution has taught her that if she is patient with the pain, it will disappear faster. She feels herself returning to normality and she begins to sit up. The blood on the floor and her face is sticky from the exposure to the air. Her hair is matted to her head with a mixture of blood and sweat. She gazes down at the object. It is as black as pitch. Three inches in length, it is sharp at both ends. She leans down for a better look and is immediately repulsed by the smell it is emitting. She cannot pinpoint the smell. It reminds her of rotting leaves and stale pond water. She stares at it in fascination. It begins to disintegrate in front of her. Black liquid pours out from within, hissing as it comes into contact with the pool of blood. Her curiosity gets the better of her and she touches the liquid. She draws her hand back quickly as her fingers are singed by the liquid, her fingerprints gone from the acidity. Poison. One solitary poison barb within her skin. How many more could there be she wondered. Where did they come from? How could she get rid of them, when ripping them from her body caused her thrice the pain? She sits back and weeps as the adrenaline drains from her body. Screams still staccato through the night, and she wonders if others are pulling barbs as sharp and poisonous from their skin. 

Saturday, 4 January 2014

Day 3

She is fed up. The constant waking and falling back asleep. The almost indescribable attacks that send every nerve on edge. She scratches a vague itch in the crook of her elbow and surveys her room once more. It is all the same, yet the door is open to the sterile white hall. She musters the energy to get up and walk out the door. Once in the hall she looks from left to right. At least 20 doors are visible, and she can hear faint but tortured moans muffled from the rooms in the immediate vicinity. She quickly moves away from the door that she knows hides the repulsive face to search out anyone else that isn’t being kept in their room. As she walks down the hall she continues to scratch her arm absentmindedly. She comes to a large room at the end of the hall that seems to be a common area. Tables and chairs that have been nailed to the floor are placed in a random pattern throughout the room. Large shatterproof bay windows overlook magnificent gardens with lush flowers and trees. A lake or pond shimmers in the sun. It holds the peace that seems to be absent within the walls. She settles herself down on the chair closest to the window and just stares at the peonies that droop over stoned pathways winding through the trees. Her hand rhythmically relives the itch that won’t dissipate. She sits for hours, blocking out the moans and occasional screams that penetrate the silence. No one bothers her. Whoever keeps pumping her full of drugs has let her be. Her eyes trace the clouds that lazily puff across the sky. The sun moves from high in the sky and slips lower and lower to the water. The sky becomes a riot of colour and her mind captures as many snapshots of the beauty as possible. She stands and walks back to her room, exhausted from her day of inactivity. Her hand continues to scratch, and when she stumbles into her bed, she feels wet warmth on her arm. She looks down to see that she has scratched away a decent amount of her skin. Underneath she sees something black and sharp protruding from the skin. As she touches it in fascination, heat explodes in her heart and her scream adds to the rising chorus throughout the halls.